I’m one of those guides.

I’m Emily Vangaarden

I’m a Composer/Performer and have been a professional Healing Guide for over 21 years.

I help Creatives & Entrepreneurs to reconnect to their soul power, natural gifts, path, purpose and joy for creating.

My specialty is guiding personal Reconnection Journeys. 

My Personal Story

I came into this life to teach about wholeness.

I came into this life prepared to learn about the process of rebuilding oneself…

The only catch here, is that if you’re going to develop an expertise in rebuilding, first you need to learn what it is to be totally shattered. And my early life fit the bill.

I came into a family of highly creative, intelligent parents, with tremendous wounding, shame, addictions and abuse to battle with. They battled with themselves and with each other. When they died I was a college student in my early twenties, and they died with a 13-year legal battle still raging between them. Their deaths meant the end of the era of war in my life, replaced by an era of enormous grief that hit me like a tidal wave. If it looked like I was still standing, well it was only because my family had taught me to pretend. Inside, I was totally decimated.

My nervous system and health had been totally wrecked, and as the dust settled I had to reckon with the fact that I didn’t even have a sense of self.

This was the beginning of having to totally rebuild myself.

A little about my own Reconnection Journey 

To reconnect to myself, there were two secret keys I had to hold close to my  heart – Love and Pain.

Love.
I let myself be drawn to something I loved. I wanted to write songs. So I bought a keyboard – but then 5 minutes into playing, I’d fall asleep as it struck by a sleeping sickness in an old tale. The level of creative block I had put me into absolute despair.

Pain.
I then walked towards the pain. I followed my instinct to deeply study Holistic Healing, Energy Medicine, Soul Retrieval and Emotional Healing techniques. I had to open to the pain and be able to feel again, safely, in order for the emotional ice to begin to thaw, and the current of creativity to start to flow in me again.

Love.
The unexpected twist in the story as pain transforms into deep beauty… Discovering that healing in and of itself becomes an art that connects me back to the mysteries of life and my own power. The joy in remembering the deeper layers and realities of life ~ far beneath our surface culture ~ and the beauty of creating sacred space with other people, where we can take off our masks, and let our real faces shine in the light of day again. The indescribable light that arrives when one of our lost parts, a lost child, returns home to us. The smile inside the body as health returns with time…

Love Abounding.
Late into the night, a world of song begins to form around me, as threads of my soul start to shimmer and flicker back to life. As I weave the song, I feel my life-force returning. As the last strains of the song complete itself, I sit there, now changed.

I have not just made a song, I have made more of myself. The fire in me crackles in response and rises higher.

This is the Journey of Reconnection to me ~ the healing journey of our lifetime. Varied, vast, individual.

And in the inner part of my chest, I have a torch there that burns in the name of wholeness for each of us, and for our planet.

If you are here reading this, then you are on the path back to yourself.

And so I’m holding a torch for you too.